Disheartened

My laptop has died along with the last 12 chapters that I've written and stupidly didn't back up. I have no idea what to do with my story right now. I don't want to quit writing it, but I don't know if I have it in me to rewrite it at the moment. I think I'm going to have to take a step back from my story and remove my mind from it for a while. Just some time to clear the stress and the annoyance I feel at myself so that I can start refreshed again and just redo what I've written. Luckily I have my hand written draft so I haven't lost the chapters completely, just the changes I've made on them. It's sad, yes, but not the end of the world as I felt it way yesterday.

Well, I guess there's not much else to say at this point, except I will be back in a little while with hopefully a new more inspiring post, but I don't know right now. Laptops are just too expensive and a hassle.

I have my Birthday to look forward to on Wednesday so I'll try to enjoy it and not think to much about this mess. Sorry to bring about this delay. Maybe I can work on some conceptual stuff for other stories I have planned in the mean time. I'll type to you later.

Coffee Night Planned

I did much better yesterday then I thought I would. I finished Chapter 26 and got a good start on chapter 27 so I just have to finish that chapter and I'll been finished with what I have written up right now. I don't think that it'll take me too long to finish the chapter so after I finish I'll probably go over the chapters I just typed up and correct them and add in things here and there to fine tune them.

I'm not sure when I'll have the time to write chapter 27, things are a bit distracting around here today, but maybe later tonight I could put in some time. I think I'll probably drink a lot of coffee tonight to keep me up. As for the correcting I don't have an estimate for when I'll have that done, but I'm hopping it wont take longer than a month, but we'll see. I would like to get it done fast so that I can start writing the final part of my book before this month ends so we'll see.

I'll post the next time I have made some progress so until then I'll type to you later.

Pancakes and Boysenberry Syrup

I'm sitting at my computer and eating pancakes with boysenberry syrup, which if you haven't tried you really should because it can make the worst pancakes taste good. Anyways, today I plan to do more typing on my first draft so I think I'll set my goal to start and finish chapter 26 today. If I miraculously get it done early I'll probably start on chapter 27 after that, but I'm thinking that that wont be a terribly realistic goal to set for myself so I'll stick with chapter 26 today and see what happens.

I'm also hoping that today will not be full of blunders like yesterday was. I can not understand how one person can manage to spill so much food all over themselves. In a period of 24 hours I managed to spill ice-cream all over my pants, soda, salsa and some odd sticky yellow goo that I have no idea where it came from. If I can manage to get through today without so much as half that many things spilling on me I will call it a successful day.

Alright, so I will go finish my pancakes and then get started on typing and inform you all how I did tomorrow.
I'll type to you later.

A New Beginning

I was just reading over my blog and I have to say I'm a little ashamed of myself for what I've posted. I think that If I were: first, not me and second, stumbled across this blog and began to read it, I don't think I'd stay very long. There's nothing in it that reflects me, as a person. I was simply stating progress, which is important, but not always a very good read by itself. If I intend to be a writer then I need to stop hesitating to put myself into what I write because words without passion are just a string of odd looking lines. If I want my writing to reflect who I am I don't want people to see a bunch of useless words, I want them to see someone that they can believe is a person, someone alive with heart that beats with a rhythm not unlike their own.

So, I will try and divulge more of myself to you, the reader. I will break down this ridiculous wall that I seem to have created to keep myself from getting attached to this blog for fear of failure. Bear with me and I will try my hardest not to disappoint.

My Best Chapter Yet

I just finished a chapter that I'm very proud of. I think my writing was topnotch and I think the emotions I was trying to achieve were achieved. The characters gained more depth then I originally intended making the chapter and I guess in turn the book better I think. I'd say that this is probably the best chapter I've written so far. I've never gotten this good of a feeling after finishing any of the other chapters and I think I'll take it as a good sign. Granted I think the others are still quite good, they just need more tweaking to get them up to this standard.

I've been house sitting for a friend who lives out in the countryside and I think the atmosphere has really helped me to concentrate on my book quite a bit I've done a lot of chapters since I've been here and I don't feel any stress about them. Maybe it's the llamas. Maybe llamas decrees stress. Someone should do a study on that, Llama's, the Stress Killers.

Progress:

First Draft Typed: 63% - Now that is what I call progress